Struggles

I have been struggling with many things in my life.

I struggle with being a working momma.

•  I never thought I would want to be a stay at home momma, but I sure do.  I think about Declan 150% of the time I am away at work.  It makes me sad just thinking about it.  I truly miss him all the time.  I know that it will possibly get easier, but I also know I will be a better momma to Declan if I work right now.  It will be better for our little family in the long run.

I struggle to make sure I am a good momma to my son.

• I want to make sure I am the best momma to Declan.  I struggle thinking about whether I am doing the right things for him all the time.  I try my best.  I know that this is just the beginning, there will be much more obstacles to jump through with this little man. I pray that I can be the best momma I can be to him.

I struggle being a good wife to my ever lasting husband.

•  It is so much harder to be a good wife when there is a little one around.  Before baby D, I felt I did my very best to be a supportive, loving, and so much more wife.  Now that Declan is here, I feel like I have put Brian to the side.  Sorry, babe.  I will never stop trying.  In my eyes, I must have a successful and loving marriage to make my family strive.  Brian and I have made a goal to have date nights at least once a month.  So, anyone up for babysitting Declan???

I struggle finding time to exercise/run.

• I love to run. I love to work out.  I loved all of that before I got pregnant. I have always struggled with my body image.  I now even struggle more.  I have lost a lot of weight already, but I have quite a bit to lose still.  Darn that preclampsia and eating unhealthy through out my pregnancy.  Now, I struggle with finding the time to work out.  Declan gets up early to eat, so I am having a hard time staying up to work out.  I know I can if I set my mind right.  My goal is to start jogging with my little man.  I have an awesome jogging stroller thanks to my wonderful set of  "running chics".  They are always a constant support for me.  Now to JUST DO IT! 

I struggle finding a church home for our family.

• Before Declan came along, Brian and I had found a church that we both loved.  We still love it.  The problem; the church is SO BIG!  I do like that part of it, but now that we have Declan I worry about all of the GERMS! I don't want Declan to get sick because we decide to go to church.  So, we are now going to try a church in Republic with my sister, Amber.  She loves her church and it is a bit smaller.  Hopefully in the next couple of weeks, Brian, Declan, and I can visit this church.   

I pray my struggles can become triumphs.  

Any tips my blog followers?